HOW TO GET THROUGH THE HOLIDAYS . . . I need more tips or possibly a kick in the @#s HELP!!! ARRRRRRR!!!!!

OK! so I am slowly losing weight, still feeling a bit down as I keep having to work extra hard to lose the weight I just lost and I am not talking 4-5 pounds, I am talking sometimes 20 pounds in 2 weeks because of parties, visits, baking etc. If my brain could only make the connection that I could be at my goal weight by now if I only stayed on track and didn’t waste time losing the same weight over and over. The worst part is that I don’t even enjoy what I am eating and I feel so sick afterwards.ย  I can’t keep going to bed at 7 to avoid eating, my family is starting to take it personally lol or cry, not sure what to do . . . actually I am lucky, they have been really good about it, but that isn’t the point, there has to be a better way ๐Ÿ™‚ I need more than the strength to get through the holidays, I need some really good advice, tips and a good kick in the @#s!

Anyone in my neck of the woods free to offer a swift kick ;)

Anyone in my neck of the woods free to offer a swift kick ๐Ÿ˜‰


PROBIOTICS . . . yes or no?

I have been hearing more and more lately about the benefits of probiotics. Are they good for us or just another passing fad? I, as well as several family members have intestinal issues, do we start taking them, if so, what kind, how do you know if they work or if you are just wasting money or worse yet putting more junk into your body? Can you take the tablets or is it betterย  to take the ones that require refrigeration? There are so many questions I have regarding probiotics. If you have any input you would like to share, please feel free to do so, it would be greatly appreciated.2probiotics

What do you Want?

A very good question that everyone should ask themselves . . . not always so easy to answer though!

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What do you want? #famouspersonquote #shapethisWhat do you want?

I open my Oprah/Deepak meditation to find this staring me in the face.

What do you want?

This question keeps coming and coming at me. Recently I read the Law of Attraction by the Hicksโ€™. The same thing. We have to dig deep and ask: what do I want? What do I want from this life experience? How do I want to feel? How do I want to be? What do I want to create? Where do I want to go? Then once we know what we want we ask for it. Then we allow for it to happen. We trust that it is already unfolding, that we are taken care of. We keep our vibration up. Same thing, I am rereading the Tao one verse at a time. The first first says:

Ever desireless, one can see the mystery;

ever desiring, one sees only theโ€ฆ

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I AM BACK . . . ALMOST A YEAR LATER (moving forward)

Well, I am back and I hope all my blog friends are doing well. I have missed staying in touch. It has been a difficult little while, but I have grown stronger from it and I am ready to get things started again. I went back to my “weight Dr.” and plan to stick with him till the end now ๐Ÿ™‚ I started out 4 pounds heavier than my starting weight last time, but I can do this.

Since the end of September I have lost 21 pounds, the only thing I need to work on is my 3 day binge after weigh in. Seems kinda silly to gain all the weight back in 3 days and then try to lose it all the next week,ย  but try to wrap that around my brain these days is just not working. ๐Ÿ˜ฆ Other than that all is getting there.

My husband and I have had some ups and downs (working on them) he finally has a new job, one where we can spend time together. You don’t realize what a relationship goes through when you go from spending all your time with someone to not having any time together, didn’t work very positively for us, but now we can work to get that 1 and 1/2 years back. Keeping my fingers crossed we can do it ๐Ÿ˜‰

My son has his ups and downs as well with his stomach/hip issues, always proud of him and how positive he can be with all his health issues. He is definitely a good role model. Very proud, doesn’t give up and doesn’t use it as an excuse to not work every day!

My daughter is taking a parenting class and has come home with a real to life doll and it wakes up every 2 hours throughout the night and she is a trooper. Of course she is used to being around children, so that didn’t surprise me. She is currently looking for a part time job, but is still volunteering.

Glad to be back and looking thforward to catching up with the lives of my blog friends.

VOICE BE GONE . . . common sense and willpower please return!!!

Ok, so I haven’t been on in a while as I have been spending all my free time EATING or should I say BINGING!!! In the past 8 months I have gained a whopping 42 pounds ๐Ÿ˜ฆ I wish I could explain why, stress took over and I found it a whole lot easier and more comforting to just eat and I would like to say it was all healthy food that I was over eating, but unfortunately it wasn’t! I have come to the conclusion that I can’t blame my weight gain on anything except myself. I have had a few things in my life that have stressed me out, but so do millions of other people and they do not resort to eating. I don’t normally binge when I am stressed, but this time I did and it got worse and worse each time something stressful came up. I found myself listening to a voice inside my head that was saying “eat everything now that you may want or crave when you go back on your diet” and of course I listened and then the next day came (diet day) and the voice was back “wait! you haven’t finished eating everything you may crave when you go back on your diet”. And this is how the past 8 months has went. Will I ever be able to get rid of this voice and get back on track?

Voice be gone . . . willpower and common sense please return!!!

GOING DEEP . . . snapping out of it!

Saw this on face book and thought I would share it . . . For myself, this hit so close to home especially during this particular time in my life. I have gained almost all my weight back, don’t want to go anywhere where people will be that I know and I am constantly blaming my unhappiness on my poor husband. I seem to be picking at every little thing he does good or bad and feel sorry for myself. The poor guy can’t seem to do anything right.

Thank goodness he is being very patient and understanding, honestly I don’t think I could be. If I had to listen to me, I would say see ya! It is really bad, I have never been so unhappy with myself/life. Definitely not who I am nor who I want to be. I am very lucky to have the family I have who are and continue to be very supportive, no matter how miserable I am.

I am going to post this all over the house in hopes that I can snap out of it or at least don’t take everyone around me down with me. Could it be that I have the winter blues, or that my husband has a new job and we went from seeing each other all the time to hardly ever seeing each other, or that I don’t drive and now I am feeling it because I have to walk and take the bus everywhere. Normally I love to walk and take the bus, it has always given me quality time with my children, but that was when I was doing it by choice, now I have no choice if I need something I have to take the bus OR is it the fact that I have gained all my weight back and am so disappointed with myself that everything else is just magnified.

I can usually find the positive in almost anything, but this dark cloud that seems to be hovering won’t allow me to see the sun past the clouds.Here is to a new day and hopefully I can start finding the light, because honestly I have absolutely no reason to be so hum glum ๐Ÿ™‚ Thanks for listening . . .


HAVING FAITH . . . and hoping for the best!!!

I am not doing so good weight wise . . . ๐Ÿ˜ฆ I don’t even want to weigh myself. ๐Ÿ˜ฆ I think I have gained at least 20 pounds in the last couple weeks and I feel horrible on top of it. Sluggish, out of breath, full, sick, you name it, I feel it!

My son has been going for tests. He has been having intestinal issues since the middle of July, non stop. We are hoping it is something minor, but both my husband and I haveย  a lot of gastrointestinal diseases in our families, so we are keeping our faith that all will work out ok. He is finally going to the specialist tomorrow which we are happy about, maybe now they can put a name to it and we can work on getting it under control. He has been a trooper though. He never missed a day of school or work and I am sure it hasn’t been the most comfortable of months for him. He doesn’t complain and when I ask him 20 questions (every day), he answers over and over again without frustration. I am literally driving him crazy with questions, making him eat certain foods, etc and he humors me every single time. ๐Ÿ™‚

I found myself stressing in a very different way this time and it was through food??? I don’t usually eat when I am stressed. I normally don’t bother with food. I eat when I am bored. I haven’t stopped eating, you name it whether I like it or not, whether I am hungry or not, it is going in to my mouth 24/7. I can’t use this as an excuse . . . I should have control. There are a lot of stressful things in life and I have to find a way to deal with them without over eating. No more excuses from this moment on. Excuses are the nails used to build a house of failure.

And keeping my fingers crossed that tomorrow brings good news. Hoping if it has to be something that it is IBS or just an irritated bowel from the antibiotics he was on.ย  ๐Ÿ™‚ Hoping for the best . . .

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